i REALLY should be sleeping but i feel like 5 year old me super anxious for my trip to Disney World. however, in my 21 year old case Disney World is Miami and Harry Potter World in Universal Studios :p
this trip is so much more different and sort of life changing than any other vacation ive taken because i get to finally meet my long-time-"online/skype/oovoo/bbm/phone"-best-friend. this has got to be the most complicated relationship i have ever had but one of the strongest as well. 4 years of ups and downs with the one friend whom i have never met in person but knows more about me than a lot of people within a 5 mile radius of me.
i cant wait to see what the next few days brings me.
decided to keep this to keep ranting on about things, a place not a lot of people know about (:
here i am, senior year of my undergrad career, one conclusion away from my summer break. i dont know why i just cant seem to FINISH this paper. sigh...this semesters been real!!!!! real stressful, real reality check, real world SHADY GROVE. lol joking...kinda...
okay....let me finish this paper and get ready to enjoy my summer...until summer school starts...le sigh.
In literal French translation, au revoir means till we see each other again, at least thats what How I Met Your Mother told me.
This journey through blogging honestly helped me a lot with this semester, letting off some steam, expressing my feelings and trying to figure things out. My title, Fembots have feelings too orignally came from a song called "fembots" by Robyn. She has become a huge obsession of mine this semester when I rediscovered her music. Robyns songs are so catchy and original but at the same time her lyrics have just been so relatable to everything that I have been going through this semester, it was kinda a perfect set up as my blog name.
I've got some news for you Fembots have feelings too You split my heart in two Now what you gonna do? Copied from MetroLyrics.com
Unfortunately, most of this blog was dedicated to a certain douchebag that I wasted way too much time on, and how funny is it that I finally came to the realization that it needs to end, just as the semester comes to a close? (a HUGE apology to the friends who had to listen to me talk about him over and over and over again, i LOVE you guys, you know who you are <3 )
It only took me about as long as it takes for an embryo to pop out of its mother, several drinks and a few huge mistakes to get over this guy. Even though it hurts, I know I'll get over it eventually, move on with my life and start fresh again. At least it made for an interesting blog to write...I think (:
Anyways, so to continue on with my Robyn obsession, heres a song that says exactly how i feel at the moment. And as the french say au revoir, till I see you again
-Fembot.
Should Have Known-Robyn
I should have seen it coming
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
I should have seen it coming
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
I'm such a fool
I can't beleive I let you in my life
You broke the rules
But I should have known you'd do it all the time
Thought we were cool with everything
but who I'm kidding
It's every players favorite crime
To make you feel like it's all real
When it's a lie
And I should have known
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
I should have seen it coming
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
I should have known
My family they never did pretend
My mama felt she never liked you
neither did my friends
And then you blamed it all on me
I should have known that's what liars try to do
It wasn't me it was you
You're the fool and I should have known
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
I should have seen it coming
I should have f*cking known
How I could I let you play me
I don't even know
If your heart is simple just like mine is
Then you would know just how it feels
When someone takes adavantage of your kindness
You think you're never gonna heal
If your soul is deep just like mine is
then you would know not to give up
Keep my faith even through the darkness
yeah I still believe in love
